Envirotech

Kory stated his new job this week. He is working as a field mechanic at Envirotech. He is really excited to learn new things and the company is a family based company with a really good work environment. I am really happy for him. However I am a little stressed out because It's a big pay cut for us. Luckily for us we both have parents who are willing to help us out. 

The other day I was on the phone trying to get a forbearance on some of our bills until Kory can get a raise.

I was really stressed about it and after I got off the phone with the mortgage people, who were especially ridiculous I was sitting on my bedroom floor crying. Lila was in the room with me, she came over looked at me and then walked out of the room. At first I thought "wow, how not sweet of her to just leave me with out a hug or anything." Then I heard her talking to Penny in the living room. I didn't hear what Lila said I only heard Penny say "what's wrong with her?" Then I heard the sweetest noise ever. The sound of 2 sets of little feet coming back to my bedroom. Hand in hand Lila and Penny came into my room. Penny crawled on my lap and said "Mom, Why are you crying?" I said " I'm just sad and I'm afraid that we don't have enough money." Then with the sweetest voice ever Penny said " Mommy, that's silly, Grandma has a jar full of money and I know that she will share it with us." (talking about Sharon's spare change jar) The Lila came over and gave me her blanket and said "it's fine Mom." which of course restarted the tears but for different reasons because at that moment I knew it doesn't matter if i have a nice car, a fancy house or designer clothes. It doesn't matter if i can't buy my kids lots of toys and new clothes every time they ask. What is important is that I am here with them and them with me and that we love each other. My kids are wonderful Penny would leave her favorite cartoon to come comfort me and Lila would give me her blanket which for Lila is the equivalent to giving her left arm. I am so grateful for my kids, and my husband, they are amazing. 

Two days later I was in town and Sharon was watching the girls. when I got home Penny said she had a surprise for me. She had me close my eyes and go into my bedroom where I found that she had asked Sharon for some coins and had left them on my bed for me. She said "Look Mom now  we won't run out of money." It almost made me start crying all over again. It's not to say I'm not still stressed about the money but I know that my kids are caring and loving children and that's what is most important.